I woke up 5am in the morning.
I was sleeping due to my tiredness.
I was told by someone that she is going to yam cha with her friends.
There's my 1 trust on her.
The very last message I sent was 1.32am before I went to bed.
From there, I never received her reply anymore.
At 5am, I called her. No answer. I called again. She picked up and something happen.
But then, there was another story behind the story.
They're not where they suppose to be. She's drunk and did not call me.
This is not the 1st time that she lied to me and she never bother to tell me.
How fun you think it is? Asked by a friend to accompany and then get drunk in late night.
You refrain me to go club because of some reasons. I followed.
And look at what you did to yourself? Getting drunk like a fucktard.
I listened to you. But what I get back in return? A backfired trust from you? Bullshit.
This is nonsense.
I was the one who did not know anything. Yet I got scolded by your friend.
You said you don't wanna go home. But in the 1st place, who ask you to go.
I don't know why you want to be so kind and accompany someone to drink and get drunk.
Even myself also never have the chance to do so.
And there you were calling me to fetch you after I know about it.
If I don't know? Will you call me? Yes? No? You know the answer.
I'm very disappointed with you. Not because that you got drunk.
Because that you never use your so called "SMART" brain and think that there's someone blindly waiting for your reply while he doze off to sleep.
Hello, I'm your boyfriend. I have the right to know.
Ya, you told me sit Estima. So what. What happen after that.
Self-humiliation. If cannot drink, don't drink la. Why want to act smart. It's a foolish act, you know?
Maybe you don't know but I know.
Again the "TRUST" that I gave has once again been broken.
Will I trust her anymore? Yes? No? Anyone can answer? I'm sure "you" can.
It's 6 in the morning. She just reach home. You think your parent won't know about it?
Sooner or later, they'll know. It's just the matter of time.
I've been wondering, are those called your "bestfriend"?
If you would ask me, I would just say "bestfriend don't leave bestfriend behind". Nuff said.
Please don't tell me that you have problem or whatsoever that makes you to drink and drunk.
Socialize? Is this what you meant? Go out say yam cha and then end up at some unknown house and drunk. Then you expect me to help you whereas you did not even tell me where the hell did you go.
Maybe this is not a serious matter to you but for me it is.
I have the right to get angry at anyone now.
I'm very piss off about something that I called "TRUST".
You've been giving me trouble after trouble. When will you want to stop?
I really had enough of this bullshit. You're crossing the line.
What you gonna do about it? Apologize and then expect me to forgive you just like that?
Is that simple? If you wanna think that way, just think that way.
I'm writing this with my tears and I don't care whether you will understand what I write or not.
This is my feelings now.
I don't care how people think about me.
Yes, you can say that I'm not considerate but heck, who ask you to do something without telling me? I have the right to know also.
If this is what you called socialize,
I'm sorry that I have to forbidden you from going out at night to yam cha.
And this words are said from inside my heart.
Regards,
Kenneth.
