I'm still emotionally unstable.

Is this what I want for myself?

Do I really have to carry this burden?

I work and make myself tired just to save money yet I can only save for 1 person.

I'm confused.

This is not what I want in the agreement.

I've to keep myself busy not to think and think any bad outcomes.

I need listener not an advisor because every piece of advice is the same shit.

Sigh.